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The Parting Gift of Life

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I’m not really sure why my mom thought of the name ‘Bathsheba’ for my  little ball of fur puppy. Yet the name stuck, although mostly she came to be known as ‘Sheba.’ Now, fourteen years of happy life later, my now beautiful loyal Akita/German Shepard dog is on her last days here in this world.

Many people here in my one-horse rural town think of dogs as a tool for guarding, hunting or herding livestock. They would not understand my devastation about my dogs recent stroke and resulting paralysis of her hind legs. They cannot relate to the sense of stress and sorrow I feel as I monitor her hour after hour, day after day…awaiting the inevitable…her death. I pray the Lord will take her, yet her apparent joy for life is still strong, and indeed it may be my decision to have to put her down. So I have made time to be with her a much as possible in this tiny window between now and tomorrow…between life and death.

I find it fascinating that she herself seems to know this and is also taking full advantage of our last minutes together. Normally, my very ‘lady-like’ ‘Queen’ Sheba would never venture outside in the heat of the day, with all the dirt and bugs. It is customary for her to be disdainful and aloof all other critters and people. No longer.

As if she is preparing for her reunion with Mother Nature, she seems to revel in the feel of the dirt beneath her hide, lying watchful under the stars at night, enjoying the sun warming her body during the day, and showing keen interest in the friendships of all other life around her. She can no longer see, yet she turns her head at the sound of voices near, and chickens there. This morning, she even laid down with her handsome kennel mate with one paw stretched over his foreleg in a completely abnormal, yet loving embrace.

Her obvious love of life in these final days, truly makes me aware of how we are all interconnected here on this earth. It makes me realize that we often take this gift of life for granted…choosing not to risk the inconvenience of dirt or bugs, not to let the sun embrace us or enjoy the stars above, choosing not to allow other people into our lives. Sheba’s last days here on this earth are a great reminder to me, to treasure each and every moment, and to embrace all living creatures in my circle of life.

Yes, perhaps many here in this tiny little town will not understand the depth of my sorrow when she transcends this world. But I do wish that they could witness this beautiful gift of the joy of life that she is leaving behind.

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Beware the Ghosts of the Past, Present, and Future! A factor in Improving your Life and Relationships

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Some time ago, I had ‘fallen’ for a man that I met at an event.  We seemed to really ‘hit it off,’ and we began pursuing our relationship with the intention of possibly becoming life partners.  The fact that his main language was Spanish, and my Spanish language skills very lacking, did nothing to make this pursuit easy.  The fact that he lived a completely different life in Mexico, and I lived in the States was a bit daunting.  Yet still.  We were both positive, strong people and we were optimistic about the possibilities!

Well, long story short, this relationship did not progress forward.  Yet I was stunned when he told me of something about myself, that I had never truly realized. He told me that he could not understand the way I presented myself to him; and he said that, “…the experiences of your past were like ghosts that came to you all the time…of fears, memories, worries, and even your ex-husband of over twenty years ago.”  In other words, he was basically telling me that I had emotionally weighed him ‘down,’ much like an anchor on a boat.

Considering that I spend the majority of my time thinking and researching ways to elevate the human spirit, I was devastated to hear this!  And the fact that I have done years of self-work, and think of myself as a fairly positive person…I was shocked to learn that he had made these observations about me during a time together when MY memory told me that this had been a wonderful, fun and uplifting time together!  WHAT?

Yes, of course, I DO know that I have had the bad habit of always looking at the negative side of things first.  And yes, I acknowledge that in conversation, I DO often verbalize my very profound viewpoints of why something ‘won’t’ work, before then acknowledging why it could work.  But really!  I KNOW I am a positive person.  Right?

Yet there was the truth…staring me right in the face…with that little ghost hovering overhead snickering at me.

Fascinating.  How could there be such a diverse difference between two perspectives?  And more importantly, is ‘that’ how I truly am?

Well, this statement got me to thinking about how I go about my daily life and my interactions with others…when I am NOT in the spotlight as a keynote Inspirational Speaker.  Dohh!  Major dichotomy, right?

His candid remark helped me to realize that I DO still have ghosts of the past affecting my life, both now and for the future!  Wow!  Now what?  How can I set an example for others to think and be positive and live in the ‘present,’ when I myself allow these ghosts to slip in and out of my life at will?

Ever heard of the statement, “Back to One?”  It’s a film cue for actors and such when the assistant director yells to them to go find their beginning mark for camera, because they need to do the scene one more time.   And often, this scene needs to be filmed again, because the first one was not quite good enough!

Well, Dana?  “Back to One!”

Ahhh well.  Sometimes it’s one step forward and two back.  Only, I do now know that awareness of a problem can be 9/10th the solution.

And fortunately, I also know that I need to get to the ‘root’ of this particular problem, so that perhaps I can truly change my inner dialogue…which will then change my behavior.  No sense in just putting a band-aid on a gaping wound, by ‘censoring’ my behavior.  Better to do a full-blown ‘spring cleaning’…find that pesky ghost hiding in the closet snickering…and kick it out of my head once and for all.

Haiiii-yah!

Well.  Here we go again.  “Lights…Camera…and ACTION!”

Cc Dana Hee, 2013

ABOUT DANA

Dana is an Olympic Gold Medalist, Top Motivational Speaker, 3x Hall Of Fame Martial Artist, Award-Winning Stuntwoman (over 17 years stunt doubling the leading ladies in Block-Buster Films such as the Batman Movies, The Terminator films, Charlies Angels, Peacemaker, Alias and MUCH more).  More importantly, she is a Life Survivalist whom endeavors to Inspire, Enlighten, and Elevate the hearts and minds of people around the world.

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‘When POWER is a hindrance and not a help!

I have sometimes found that my ‘exuberance’ of life is sometimes mistaken as ‘ego,’ ‘Hollywood,’ or ‘falseness.’ What a shame. When the reality is that of a child of hopelessness finally finding the joy in living.

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